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Sunday, June 24, 2007
panalo ka na


buong buhay ko puro responsibilidd na. yung responsibilidad na dapat kay kuya lahat pinasa niyo sa kin. paglilinis ng bahay, pagluluto, pabubunot ng damo, pamamalengke, pagayos ng ilaw, pagbantay sa bahay  pagbantay sa kanila paglabas ng basura. pagpapaaral sa kaniya, pagbayad sa kuryente, at kung ano ano pang bayarin. lahat na sakin na. hindi ako perpekto, tamad din ako. madame din ako kasalanan. d ko rin nagagawa lahat yan araw araw.

best section ako mula elementary. kung ano anong contest sinalihan ko para ipagmayabang mo yung napanalunan ko sa mga kaibigan mo. lahat ng pwedeng takbuhan para maging officer tinakbuhan ko lahat ng pede salihan sinalihan ko. hanggang college yan. pumalya man ako magka incomplete naraos ko din. sinalihan ko lahat ng contest, kung ano anong awarding ceremony pinuntahan mo dahil sakin. kung ano ano pinagmayabang mo. dalawang graduation inattendan mo, parehong sakin, pati ung pinaka mataas na award na binibigay sa skul binigay ko sayo. lahat ginawa ko.

nung siya nangarap ng bagay na alam nating lahat hindi naman natin kaya, umiyak lang siya naawa ka na. binigay mo. kahit alam mo ung hirap na dadanasin natin. siya lng naman mabaet sa yo eh. sya lang ung magaling. siya lang ugn bida. siya lng nmn kase anak mo eh.

tapos ako ung pangarap ko na makapagtrabaho sa gusto ko at mahal ko. ano sagot mo sakin? ano salita mo sakin? "kung hihintayin mo pa yang pangarap mo walang mangyayari satin.". PUTANGINA.

tinrabaho ko lahat kase gusto ko matupad yung pangarap kong yun. pero dahil responsibilidad ko magpaaral at mabayad tinanggap ko na rin ung unang trabaho na nandyan. wala nmn ako magagwa eh. walang mangyayari satin kung hihintayin ko yung putanginang pangarap ko d b?

galit ako. hindi ko gusto tong ginagawa ko. wala kong ibang outlet para ilabas sama ng loob ko. sinasabi mo hindi mo ko pinilit dito? eh ano bang salita mo? ano ba pinagduduldulan mo sa mukha ko? na nakatengga lang ako dito sa bahay. na ung anak mo walang pambayad sa mga bayarin niya jan sa pagkatayog tayog niyang pangarap, na kahit naman sa trabaho kong to eh hindi rin naman natin kaya.

kelan lang for interview ako sa isang trabaho na gusto ko. kelan lang din for ionterview din ako sa opisina na pinapangarap ko. tinanggihan ko. bket? kse hindi rin nmn sigurado kung matutupad yung putanginang pangarap ko eh. bchaka nandito na tong una eh.

tapos magagalit ka kse "sinusupladahan" kita? nagagalit ka kase pagtinatanong mo ko kung anong nangyayari sa opisina ang sagot ko wala? eh kase wala. kse ayoko ng ginagawa ko dun. I DONT FUCKING LIKE IT BUT I DO IT, ANYWAY. WHY? BECAUSE I FUCKING HAVE TO. HAVE TO. NOT WANT TO. NOT LOVE TO. EH ANO BA NAMAN KASE YUNG PUTANGINANG PANGARAP KO SA PUTANGINANG PANGARAP NG ANAK NIYO DB? WALANG MANGYAYARI SATIN PAG HINITAY KO MATUPAD YUNG PANGARAP KO. KAHIT MAY TUMAWAG NA. TINANGGIHAN KO KSE MINAMADALI MO KO. PINALAGPAS KO NA YUNG CHANCE NA MATUPAD YUNG PANGARAP KO.

kaya sorry ha. kung sinusupladahan kita. sorry kung pabigat ako at kung problema ako sayo simula't sapol. sorry. kse lagi ko inuuna sarili ko eh. palamunin kase ako eh. irresponsable. walang utang na loob. walang kwenta. putangina kase tong ginawa ko eh. dapat d na lang ako nagaral mabuti eh. ikaw kase palaging panalo. oo palpak din ako. at oo galit din ako. hindi ko gusto to. galit ako sayo. sinisisi kita. kse kaya ako nandito dahil sa pagaaral nung anak mo eh. pasensya na.  dalawang chansa sa pangarap ko yung lumagpas. ok lang kahit d na matupad yung pangarap ko, matupad lang yung sa anak mo. ano ba nmn yung pangarap ko db?

tinanatanong mo kanina kung may gusto ako sabihin sayo? eto un. gustong gusto ko na magsalita. pero hindi ko ginawa. kse alam ko masasaktan ka lang. at gagawa ka n nmn ng paraan para ibalik sakin lahat to. gustong gusto ko na isumbat lahat to sayo. pero d ko ginawa. kse nirerespeto kita.

panalo ka naman. magsaya ka na.




HaZeLeYe_LoVeL @ Sunday, June 24, 2007

pornstar88
November 1, 2007   09:23 PM PDT
 
oh dear... :(
morena
September 23, 2007   03:37 PM PDT
 
hindi tayo magkakilala, nakita ko lang ang blog mo ng minsang mag surf ako sa net habang nasa trabaho. galit kasi ako nung mga oras na un, kaya ewan ko ba naisip kong itype ang keywords na galit ako!, at lumabas nga ang blog mo. nakakatawa, kasi base sa mga sinulat mo ang situwasyon mo at ang sa akin ay iisa. minsan nga parang gusto kong mithiin ang mga salitang "to hell with everybody!"....sarili ko naman at ang mga anghel ko ang iisipin ko.

ganyan talaga, sige lang, let it flow kumbaga. mawawala rin ang pakiramdam mong galit ka. sana hupa na ang emosyon na nasa dibdib mo, habang binabasa mo ang komento ko...
masaya
July 20, 2007   03:29 PM PDT
 
wow.... an bigat nyan... ana malampasan mo na yan at naway maintindihan ka na nila :D misyu lovel! hayaan mo nandito kaming adversingko para sayo at naniniwala kami sa kakayahan mo. totoo yun.
iSSa
July 19, 2007   09:21 PM PDT
 
hey you! ngaun ko lng to nabasa.. and i know u still feel the same. sorry if i cant do anything ah. umm let's eat out.. bread factory?! my treat. hehe. iloveyou.. i hope u know and feel that. sorry if im not available most of the time. pero im stil here. mmmm miss u. ul get by.. i know u will.. in the end... we all receive what we all deserve :D
kingdaddyrich
July 18, 2007   03:09 PM PDT
 
may kaaway ka ba? hehehhe..

kilala mo pa ba ako...

im back for blogs.. ;)
me?
June 27, 2007   12:28 AM PDT
 
Sometimes God put us in our dark place where everyone we see is bad... Everything seems wrong, and everything we do is wrong... In the end, God only wants to let you feel the love... the agony... the pain... the despair. He has a perfect plan for what is happening to us, whether its good or bad, right or wrong.. everything happens for a reason...

My advice to you Lovel is: being patience is good, but sometimes try to talk it over... your *enemy* loves you even if you cannot see it, try to put yourself in her position, nurturing you, giving you what you want or even dont like... The important thing is that they loved you as you them with all your heart without any hatred in your heart...

peace be with you...
da`kid
June 25, 2007   02:16 PM PDT
 
ayaan mo na lang. may ryt tym din siguro para yung gusto mo naman ang masunod..

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si BORA at si LOVEL ay iisa.

A struggling fine arts student from the University of Santo Tomas ( GRADUATE NA!!!! ). Always trying to avoid getting into to trouble, but fails to do so (half the time she isnt even aware she's already in trouble). A bundle of contradictions. Says one thing and does the other. One moment, she's this, the next, is not. Complicates the simple things in life. Does not know what she really wants 85% of the time.Is easy to please but is very hard to impress. aims to be the nicest person on earth, and then realizes she isnt up for the title - there's just too many backstabbers and pretenders to hate.

Loves walking under the rain at night. Loves staring up the nightsky while walking, kaya laging natatalisod (she is flatfooted) Loves travelling. Adores lights and fire (all sort). Collects flashlights (that gets broken after two days). Considers herself a bookworm, a crap-writer, a crappier talker, a struglling artist, a photographer extraordinaire (or so she thinks), a basic musician (jack of all trades, master of none), a statue dancer, an inactive activist, a real dreamer and a very miserable liar.

Dances even without music. Sings in the wrong tune. Does not mix the spaghetti sauce with the pasta. Drinks from a soda cup using five straws (minimum) all stuck in her mouth. Insomniac. Could gain 5lbs overnight (ask her friends). Has a dog named Allan Lopez, a cat named Pusa and 2 pairs of lovebirds, all named Lovebirds.

Hates going to the mall. Hates posers and wannabes. Hates liars and airheads. Hates people who thinks they're funny (especially if they are not). Loathes frogs and Usher. Is afraid of Bjork and Mahal.

A child of the 80's and 90's. Believes in the second-coming of the Eraserheads. Thinks Liam Gallagher (Oasis) and Dolores O'Riordan Burton (Cranberries) should hook up. Hails Chris Martin (Coldplay). Wishes to own all three albums of coldplay.

edit: Erase the last paragraph and replace with: Is in love with Bloc Party drummer Matt Tong and plans to one day go to United Kingdom, stalk him and eventually be Mrs. Tong. (why are brit rockers so hot???)
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