Confessions of a First Time Girlfriend : affirmation, insecurities and all that jazz
To all NBSP girls out there, remember how your committed girls tell you about having a boyfriend is a mixture of "work and pleasure"? They were right.
Dont get me wrong. I love my boyfriend to death. Every heartache that Ive been through - it was all worth it. He was worth the wait. Sobra. And i would go through it all over again, basta be siya yung nasa ending.
Im no expert on this, but let me just share with whoever's gonna read this blog about what Ive gone through from being the girl friend to being a girlfriend.
One big thing? TIME. Before, I had all the time i could spend for work, for myself and for my friends. I have so much time, na minsan, i dont have anything to do with it. Bakante. But now, I have to manage my time for eveything. Not that I feel compelled to have time for him. If anything, kung pwede lang the whole day kame magkasama, why not? Better! But then again, i cant eb with him 24/7. I have to give time for family, friends and work. No big fight yet regarding time. We just talk about it na lang, i let him know if pwede ba kame magkita or not. May konting tampuhan, but other than that, ok naman,
Then there's the "ex" issue. I would have to admit na my guy's kinda famous with the ladies. Especially with his background: a college basketball player (tangkad!), Best Thesis awardee (smart!), laking Australia, nice bod, good smile, mabango, you get the picture.
Anyway, he "dated" better looking girls. One of which he dated for a little less than two years, and whom he loved so much and another of which already posed for FHM, and does modelling stints. So you see, you cant blame me if i feel insecure, especially after seeing their faces on his "who's viewed me" on friendster.
Ever since we got together Ive been getting bigger and bigger. from 100 lbs, i now weigh close to 120. Oh God. I really have to diet.. or die.
The solution to this one? Affirmation. Yes, girls need to be affirmed all the time. A simple "you look good today" would do. Just dont say it everyday, di na maniniwala sayo yun. Basta let her feel she's beautiful kahit na her new haircut made her look like siopao. Hahahaha.
Issue number three would have to be the parents. I belong to an uberly conservative family, where guys have to ask permission to my parents all the time. Kung may kakahuyan lang dito samin, magpapasibak na rin sila ng kahoy eh. I havent solved this one problem, but Ive talked to him about it and he's cool. We'll just have to wait til my dad gets back here. yiiii.
I know we still have far to go. And a lot of crying and laughing will still happen. Pero ok lang. Let it all come. We're in this together. :P
P.S. I know he wont be able to read this anyway, and i dont intend to. But anyway, I love you love. I love you so much i had to write about us here. hahaha. . *Kith* more to come.